of trying again

Its been a long time since the last post. So many things have changed. If I look back at the posts, its hard to relate to the thoughts, the feelings, the emotions mentioned. Its like looking at someone else's life.

February to October is just 8 months, But time is measured by the changes that happen around us. Life sure has changed. New job, new city, new house, new people.

Its not as if I have tried to do a makeover and start again. But it seems like another start.

तुम्हे अपना बनाने को जी चाहता है,
एक बार छू जाने को जी चाहता है |

सदियों से तुमको यूं ढूँढा है मैंने
बस एक बार पाने को जी चाहता है |

निगाहें उठाने की जुर्रत भी की,
कि निगाहें मिलाने को जी चाहता है |

वीराने में फिर एक खनक सी तो हो
तुम्हे फिर हँसाने को जी चाहता है |

कई बार सोंचा कि तुमसे कहूं
तुम्हे पास लाने को जी चाहता है |

मगर इस दूरी में भी वो कसक है
फिर तरस जाने को जी चाहता है |

ये जाना कि किस्मत नहीं तुम हमारी
मगर आजमाने को जी चाहता है |

~Yours Truly

you and me

question for a question
an endless roundabout
the game goes on
and we search for answers
as we hide around each other

seeking the answers and
eluding the questions
time passes us by
and still we run
as we chase each other

life is short and crisp
it ends before the questions
looses meaning
and you ask me
if it is worth asking the questions

i dont know what to say
i dont know the answers
but searching you
and chasing you around
is a lot of fun dont you know?

love song

I love you
said the mannequin
to the labourer

As he patiently dusted her sinuous back
carefully cleaned her fair, fragile face,
made sure her slender arms
twisted by unruly crowd
were alright.

I love you
she said

As he silently combed her long fleecy hair,
pinned the folds of her new clothes on,
softened the glare of lights
ensuring that she
looked good,

I love you
she said

unmindful of her fervent yearning whispers
he moved her around, straightened her poise
that no one could
see the hollow heart
inside.

he dabbed a dash of red on her thin stiff lips
took some more and rouged her cheeks
to hide the plasticky shine
and the glistening smoothness
of her lifeless skin

and as he worked he looked outside
saw the smiling, laughing girls
talking and moving
in their mysterious
alluring ways

the labourer
told the mannequin
I hate you.

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I thought I would try my hand at writing a sort of a love song. This isnt a typical love song I know. But this is as I see love happening in our times and days. The labourer doesn't have any special qualities. The attention he pays to mannequin is because he is forced to. And yet mannequin falls in love with him as there is no one else and she is lonely and desperate for someone who cares about her. And labourer hankers after something that is not available to him.

So what should one do? should mannequin stop loving the labourer and wait for someone worthier? Should the labourer try to find happiness in where he is?

of television

i was watching discovery channel tonight. i like this channel. all the science and interesting ways to show it. the program was about future weapons. Science &"boys with their mean toys" what else does a guy with lots of nerdism in his blood want?

so sat down to watch. but somehow ended up focusing more on the language and presentation rather than the content.

Frankly, i was amazed. The program was not science. It seemed more like a propaganda piece for weapons industry and "our boys in army doing the good hard work" advertisement.

There was also the irony of one of the important researchers of the weapons program being vietnamese. She was doing work on liquid explosives which are really effective in killing people inside caves. Some how that famous line from apocalypse now "i love the smell of napalm in the morning." popped up in my mind. A vietnamese doing liquid explosive related reasearch for American army.

she went on and on about how she is gonna do her best to get the weapons out as soon as possible so that the army can use it against the terrorists. i could almost hear the lesson being taught. "all these guys are working as hard as possible to make sure those lousy hiding inside the hill terrorists die as quick a death as possible. so you better pay respect to them."

She even managed to put in a line to the effect that the results they obtained were close to miraculous. first time i had heard miracles in connection with death. I had heard about the miracle of life. The miracle of death makes a more spectacular episode.

by the end of it i expected a guy in a funny coloured top hat point a finger at me and ask something like why the hell are you sitting on your ass and not taking up the good fight or atleast waving some bloody flags. ( dont point out to me about the fact that i belong to a completely different nationality)

This presentation of propaganda in garb of science is not new. I am sure ppl will be able to point out other examples. when i mentioned this, my friend rahul (who was watching the program with me) made a comment saying all science is propaganda. Lets not get started on that.

In fact this is what was worrying me, be it science (discovery, nat geo) history(history channel) or anything else, facts and imagination are being mixed at a frightening pace. Its difficult to know what is science and what is imagination or opinion of some producer sitting somewhere.

I dont think we should be watching tv for new/information much. TV's best and only use is as emotional gratifier and provider of entertainment. Its completely unsuited for news or any serious knowledge discussion. the image becomes more important than the content on TV and thats bad for knowledge.

mushkil ho

gaye wo din ki intezaar karna mushkil ho,
unke waade par aitbaar karna mushkil ho.

intezaar ki yuun aadat si pad gayi humko,
yeh haal hai ki ab pyaar karna mushkil ho.

aane ki unke ab to raah bhi nahin dekha karte,
darte hain wo aaye to deedaar karna mushkil ho.

bewafaaiyon ki itni kahaniyaan jubaan par hain,
ki wafaa ki gujaarish ek baar karna mushkil ho.


i dont know if its complete or not. something seems missing. but anyway have spent enough time on it.

welcome back to feudal ages

I am writing this as i think it up. So excuse the mistakes.

Why am I talking about feudal ages? Because they are a period of time in human history which, I believe, are representative of what happens when too much of power is concentrated in too few hands.

And why do I welcome you back to them? Because I believe that, again, we might be marching towards a situation where too much power is being concentrated in too few hands.

Think about it, what was the source of power in medieval times? Land.

Land provided you food, land provided you minerals, land provided you with a place to stay. The more land you controlled the more powerful you were.

Even the Vatican, derived a lot of its power through its control, though indirect, of who could be the king and thus control the land in a given area. Victorious were rewarded through allotment of land, losers had their lands taken away from them. So, the consequence was that land was parceled among various claimants: kings and queens, and prices and churches.

But the problem was that the actual people who could use this land to produce something, the peasants. were very rarely, owners. The powerful would rent out the land to the peasants. Most of the fruits of labour were taken away by the powerful, with pittance for peasants. This made peasants disinclined to work hard, be innovative with their production process. This stifled improvements in agriculture and food produce was never so much to free a large proportion of population to be inventors and scientists.

In fact, the break from the feudal ages happened when the european civilization had long encounters with arabs. The exchanges with the arabian world brought forth new technologies. This led to a shift in the source of power. Slowly technology became the source of power rather than land. Who ever was more advanced technologically had more power. Whoever had better guns, better food production systems was more powerful.

If we look at any other culture, we will notice that its stagnation happened whenever the source of power (or the bottleneck resource for production, if you control that resource you control production) in that culture became concentrated in a small group and rest of the society had to pay rent to be able to use that resource.

In India, initially, the bottleneck resource was not land. Land was productive enough to produce a surplus. widespread famines were not prevalent in much of pre-british era. Instead, the limiting resource was knowledge. Majority of the knowledge transfer happened through verbal methods. Verbal methods do not allow for rapid dissemination of knowledge to large masses. Whatever was written knowledge, it became the preserve of brahmins who guarded it jealously. The caste system also made it difficult for people to be exposed to new knowledge. And hence, the peasants, the craftsmen used the same tools, the same methods year after year. And when the industrial revolution came, india was not prepared to take advantage of it.


Anyway, the point of all this discussion is that we might be heading again for the same situation. Our, as a civilization, primary source of power is knowledge. And with patents and copyright laws, it is being controlled by smaller and smaller groups. this is especially evident in dna research, medicines, discovery of new molecules, software etc. These owners dont want to sell their technology. They would rather license(rent) it out and earn on them.

There are companies cropping up whose method of operation is to buy obscure patents and earn by licensing them out to others. They dont research , innovate or discover anything. They just keep track of any new innovation and discovery and try to buy it out before the market knows about it.

This method of operation again separates the owners from the actual users. Which will mean that the users will not be encouraged to innovate on anything they rent.

As the owners become powerful by accumulating more and more knowledge and simply renting them out, they would naturally desire that any innovations made, which depended on knowledge owned by them, should result in payments made to them.

If you look at medicines, large areas of molecular research are difficult to get into because they require using patented molecules and there is disagreement between the patent owning company and the company desiring to use it.

With patent regimes being enforced more and more throughout the world, we will see more problems in sorting out the ownership of the innovation and deciding who all should benefit from a particular innovation. Plus the fact that the owners (mostly companies) of the innovation are getting separated from innovators(mostly a small group of people) is going to cause even more heartburns.

All these things make me feel that we are about to enter another phase where there will be decline in the pace of innovation and development. Unless something happens which changes the source of power or there is change in the knowledge ownership system itself.

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Okay, I know that this theory is not backed by data or enough research to be foolproof. Its not that I am very sure that this is going to happen. The society around us is not a linear system with two or three factors determining the outcome. It is pretty complex. There are large number of factors influencing any course society takes. The source of power now (knowledge and the rule of law used to protect ownership) can change very quickly, especially the rule of law.

But I do believe that the ownership of knowledge is shifting to companies rather than individuals. companies are getting more and more powerful while being fewer in number. We also have the problem that as companies get more powerful, it will get more and more difficult to make laws that would affect the companies adversely. So it will become more and more difficult for individuals to do something independent of companies.

This increased power and decreased numbers is going to cause a lot of problems. Innovation is just one of them.